Tonight’s depression vent

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Tonight my depression is acting up badly, so I am trying to get my feelings out.
Tonight I feel like a total failure at everything. My house is a wreck and I fed my children chicken nuggets and macaroni and cheese for dinner. My son is failing in school and having behavior issues. One of my daughters is currently sobbing in the bathroom because I am making her go to bed. Mom. Of. The. Year.
I am also exhausted. I am a teacher with seven days left in the school year. Tomorrow is field day. I am too tired to even get excited about it. I am behind on grading and grades have to be entered in one week. My classroom is also a wreck. Teacher. Of. The. Year.
My husband is upset with me. I seem to let him down a lot. I can’t prepare the kind of meals I would like. I can’t keep the house clean. I can’t keep up with laundry. Wife. Of. The. Year.
I feel like I am letting everyone down. Even myself. I keep trying to lose weight, but I gain instead. I keep trying to excel at work, but instead I fail. I try to achieve my goals in Mary Kay, and they slip through my fingers. I keep trying to pursue my dreams, but I am barely surviving day to day. I tell my students to work hard, keep dreaming and good things will happen, but I am not even sure I believe that anymore.

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5 thoughts on “Tonight’s depression vent

  1. Jenni B

    This is where I hug you and tell you…
    … my house is a wreck.
    … Laundry is in several piles in my room, my living room, the bathroom, the laundry room.
    … my kids had cereal last night and Stevie B’s tonight.
    … my hubby and I pass in the night.
    … goals are made for you to stretch. when you reach one… there’s always another.
    … they only slip away if you let them go.
    … you’d be surprised how many women don’t have it all together.
    … keep dreaming.
    … let’s have coffee… or something stronger.
    … I am convinced my weight won’t leave me because I am an excellent host and I make it happy… and it brings friends.
    … girls cry. it’s what we do.
    … boys misbehave. it’s what they do.
    … God is good. All the time, strong soldier.
    … you are loved more than you can ever possibly imagine.
    … Matt 6:25-34

    • Jennifer

      I’ve never seen a more perfect reply than what your friend Jenni wrote. Asking that God gives you peace of mind and helps you see yourself the way he sees you.

    • Pam

      Excellent comments! My kids are grown and I still fail my house, my kids, and my husband daily. I think chicken nuggets and macaroni and cheese is awesome. Last night I told everyone to find something to eat. Love you!!!

  2. My dear friend, you are a success as a friend to me! I admired you since I first met you & that has not changed! You give me hope because you are human & rise above set backs! You are real & don”t give up! Love, Bonnie

  3. Cindy

    I love you friend ❤ You are not alone. I am not even working and I feel like a failure most days. I am working on my degree to be a teacher (4 classes left) and I wonder how I will manage it all when I go back to work. You are an amazing mom, teacher and wife. Focus on the day / the moment, those kiddos will grow up right before your eyes, so just set your eyes on loving them. The summer will be here soon and you can whip up those recipes you have been pinning on Pinterest soon enough. I wish I could be there to hug you and tell you everything will be okay and that your not a failure. Stay strong and know you are loved.

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